A Brand New Start

Started my new job as a temporary management supporting officer on 26 April. Haha! Sounds cool isn't it haha. I enjoyed working there, at least for the previous 2 days as compared to working in MOE.

Went for SMU Business Administration interview today. Saw quite a no. of NP students. Anyway there are 2 sections with part A consisting of essay writing and comprehension and part B group discussion. There were only 1 guy from hwa chong and another from an international school in my group, the rest are all poly students. That guy from the international school was only 18!!!! I gotta admit he was the most outstanding candidates of all with his hand raised up almost every 1 min. LOL. Hopefully I'll get selected as well :)

Puzzled Mind

Received a call from SMU to enter an interview next wednesday for business administration. Finally :)

Had a great basketball game with my poly mates and internship colleagues. It was great haha! Kobe bryant live in bp cc LOL! It's been quite some time since I last played with so many people haha.

Was taking a nap and my mum waked me up thinking that I got a letter from the uni. LOL. It was the enlistment letter instead. Sigh. What's next? Really not in the mood to do anything now.

I really cant think of anything to blog. Watching a chrisitian movie now. It's such a sad yet touching story.

God has a plan for everyone :)

Following God's Will

Called Lee Jun up al of a sudden haha. Was browsing through my phonebook, finding people to chill out with me. Glad I got lionel and lee jun with me :) It was a surprise to see elson at cwp haha. That makes 2 4/3 and 2 4/4 students LOL.

Later in the night nich invited me out for a movie - shutter island. It was great. There were a lot of thoughts after watching the movie and sitting here now in front of my com. Just like Leonardo in the movie, sometimes we're just as blind as him. Unconcious. What is it that truly matters to us? Scoring well for exams, winning a competition or is it gaining fame? Are all these earthly treasures? Do not not store up treasures on earth but in heaven. I often put studies before God and that was a very wrong choice. I believe if he wants to put me through this, skipping that few hours for him to attend cell, service or any programmes, he'll definitely pay me back with twice or thrice times the amount I would not have expected. That's my God.

Since primary one all the way until now. PSLE, O Level and Diploma. Everything went off so smoothly that just when I realized it, I enlisting soon and at the same time, waiting for university. This's my story, what's yours?

What I have Been Waiting For This 3 Years

One, two, three,.... When's my turn, God? I've been waiting for it since my very first year of poly. Now that I got the results, you're not telling me that it's the end already? Hmm looking at how many of my friends had already gotten their acceptance letter from the univeristy makes me worried! Come to think of it, majority of them scored much better for their o levels, is that the reason?

Been struggling this 3 years, thinking whether I should retake my O's. It's not as if it's that bad though. At least I managed to get into LMGT, all thanks to my cca points :) Something came across my mind whenever I thought of this. That's wad you had given me, God. I'll be content and accept as it is. I'll follow your will.

It's said to be early may, I shall continue to open my letterbox daily and keep a lookout for that letter. I believe wadeva the outcome is, it'll always be the best for me :)

Congratulations to those who received the uni letter :)

The Nature of Human LOL?

It's weird, I thought when one ignored your msg, you tell him off and he will most probably stop it. It seems not to be the case here. Had an appointment with you for breakfast? Even though I had eaten but since it's a promise I thought I should just accompany you for breakfast. Since I supposed you're still asleep so I left you with a msg, you ignored my msg as usual (I mean sometimes you do), and later in the afternoon msg me saying I should have called you?

Hmm is it really so hard to reply a sms? You're not the only one. I have got friends who are just like you. Those who ignore smses, those who never turn up for appointments or meetings and still don think that they are wrong (I mean though they verbally admit they are wrong but they never change).

Doesnt that sounds wrong to everyone? Hmm am I too petty or is it just normal? LOL! If it's wrong or irresponsible, why then, people still do it despite knowing the facts. What an irony.

Got To Have Faith In Him

As a matter of fact, I'm kinda worried about going NS but at the same time, I looking forward to becoming physically and mentally strong. Guess it's due to the many factors/problems I might come across with which frightened me.

I'm so tired and sleepy now. Feeling so restless all of a sudden lol.

It's been nearly two months since the university applications. Seems like quite a number of my friends gotten the letter from the universities already. Been checking my letterbox regularly but to no avail. It's kind of bothering me as I was aiming for a place in the university all along. That's just show how much faith I have in God. Shouldnt even in the first place be worried about it. He has it all planned out for me. If it's mine, eventually I'll receive the letter.

Life's been rather colorful ever since I quitted that job. Got another HR administrative job again and hope it will turns out well this time round. Most importantly of all, I don wish to have any conflicts with my partner who introduced this job to me. Cant imagine if he decides not to work all of a sudden and MIA haha.

I'm finally free

It was a struggle for me for the past 3 weeks. All I want to do is to fully utilize my time while waiting for enlistment. Never did I realize walking into MOE was a wrong step or rather getting attached to the assist. executive was a wrong choice.

How would you feel if you are scolded for almost every single day? How would you react if whatever you do, does not satisfy your boss and she just keeps on scolding you. I had finally reached my limit, it has to be stopped.

Called my executive to settle everything once and for all. Here's the dialogue:

Teck: Hey Shin, sorry about just now but I gotta leave earlier. Just want to tell you that I want to quit this job.

Shin: Why? (Stern)

Teck: The pressure coming from **** was overwhelming and I cant take it anymore. I'm being scolded everyday for everythings I do irregardless whether it is something right or wrong. Taking one example was that she said she will finish arranging the folder when she comes back on saturday. However when I came to work this morning, she left the folders on my desk. I remembered her telling me about double checking before dispatching the folders and so I did. I spotted the mistakes and again, I was scolded for not identifying it earlier. Didnt you just finished doing it on saturday when no one was around in the office? Being scolded by her has already become a phobia for me. I wanted to work as an HR admin as it was my interest and I'm waiting for enlistment so I thought I should find something I really like. However the outcome was this.

Shin: You'll face this type of problems very often when you enter the workforce and you should have brought up this matter earlier and not when you're about to leave. She did mention you in front of me before but I dont think she dislikes you as the previous TC worked for 3 days and **** asked him to leave. Ok never mind, take it as a learning experience and you take a rest from now and forget about all this unpleasant stuffs, I will inform her tmr.

I was really touched by his words. I was perservering this few weeks and I was afraid by voicing out my problems, things might get awkward so I kept it inside myself. Parents weren't around in singapore and I had no one to talk to. I'm glad I'm finally free :)

Looking Back At The Past

I missed the time I played the cello in an orchestra/enemble. Life w/o music is indeed dull. Didnt have the discipline to practise despite having the time to do it now. Can't get any better just by sitting here and thinking about it. Maybe, it's time.

It's just so hard to change one's character sometimes. I just dislike changes to any plans after it's been confirmed. Life's so unpredictable.

There're things that I wana do and things that I wish I could stop myself from doing. It's just so tough.

I really wana quit this time. MOE is driving me crazy. Is it just because I cannot take the stress or is it true that they had already crossed the line. God help me please. It doesn't seems to be something I wana do.

Home Alone 2

My parents will be back tomorrow! I feel so relieved. Get to experience a lot of things through this week. Washing the clothes, drying and hanging it up, making sure it doesn't rain etc. It's so troublesome but now I know how my parents felt haha.

I dono how to iron my clothes!!! Shit!!!

Appointment was cancelled in the last minute -.- and I didnt go for the recce today either. Just waiting for 7pm so that i can meet you. It's just weird, waiting till 7pm just to go out with your friends and go home together. Doesn't it sounds weird? Hope it'll be interesting then.

The Life of an Adult

Going to work was like a way to kill my time until yesterday when I got scolded and same things happened today. It's really pressurizing and unlike the usual time, I don't even have the time to sms. Lol. It's the peak period so I cant blame anyone. Kept scolding her back in my heart for she always gives last minute instructions and expect me to remember every single things. I tried something new instead. Thank her for identifying my mistakes and to my surprise, she suddenly came to help me out with the folders LOL.

Going to PSC tomorrow morning and got to rush all the way back to MOE. Hope I don get scolded again tmr sigh.

Met Hong yi just now to sell my nba 08 disc to him haha. It's been quite a while and it was great to see him. Haha. More decent looking due to his short hair. Nice haha.
Gotta QT and sleep already. I don think I can wake up tml!!!

Good Friday

I am ashamed of not putting God as my priority for most of the time and I have to confess that I never turn up for service on the eve of Good Friday. I turned up for Good Friday service and left earlier after finishing my prayers. Went to meet the young yet feminine one :) It was the first meeting though great but I felt a sense of uncomfort. It was great thought :)

Had cell on sunday morning before the combined service. AGAIN, the very same person never turn up and had the guts to not even notify us. I reminded myself not to be fast to conclude but stay calm and think of the next step. Finally managed to control my temper and sent him a msg. I thought I might have an answer from him and I believe he must have met up with some problems. I knew, I knew something happened.
However the answer gave was unreasonable.

Whatever we do, we got to stand by our promise and if there's anything that cropped up, it's only right to inform the other party. It's said, a leopard never changes its spot but I kind of believe that this might not be true. Dude, pls prove to me that I'm right. I honestly don't like ______ person. You know it. You better think of a valid reason and let us know. It's not just about attending cell but one's personalities. You'll get fired just like my supervisor last time, who always never turn up and never inform anyone and uncontactable somemore. It's time to grow up and change.

We may be willing to forgive anyone but before the impression is gone, change. Don't just affirm verbally but show us.

Went to meet her again after church and this time, it was totally different. You can tell what's going on now. It was a great day. We went to watch "How to Train a Dragon", and indeed it was the right choice haha. Such lovely, touching and interesting movie. It was a pleasure knowing you. I just enjoy being with you.

Home Alone 1 - The Beginning of Everything

With my parents away in Taiwan, it would means home alone, my bro is always home late and he got work too. Hmm gotta start doing hoouse chores already. Busy busy. Gotta wash clothes, dry and hang them up. Boring!!! But that's what I got to do in the future too.

My little rabbit must be starving!!!! Ate early in the morning and waited until I'm home at 8 plus!! So POOR THING!!!! I'm glad my totoise never comes out haha, this means he don't wanna eat LOL!!!

Anyway, it was a bad day today. I was scolded by my boss for doing this and that wrong. If it's something so important, why don't you do it yourself. Why did you spend your time walking around chatting with the others, chatting on the phone when you can help me with it? What a jerk. Just because you got two assistant, doesn't mean you can throw everything to us. U're a mother for goodness sake. Sigh, I feel bad for your kid.

Stop blaming me when you were the one who was supposed to check and identify my errors. I'm new here aren't I? Wonder how long can I last working in such pathetic place.

Met nich and went JP to collect my Aino bluetooth ear piece. Finally gotten it back!!! Really appreciate your company despite being so tired. Sorry about that haha.

A New Saga

Why should I feel embarassed with what I do? It's not something wrong neither is it something bad. Is it due to a lack of faith or low self esteem? Gotta work this out. GOD!!! Pls shower me with the blessing of faith!!!

Here comes a new challenger.

Attended the good friday service. It was sad though, to see everyone being in their own clique whereas I'm alone. Cliques and couples here and there, where are my cell mates or my 2 brothers sigh. Dono why I always feel so left out.

Anyway had a great time praying. Gotta start afresh from now! Get away!! You evil temptations!!!!!!

Indeed always heard girls being hurt by guys but it always seems to be the opposite way when I think of myself LOL! It's weird. Are there really so many hypocrites in singapore?

The H3 subject question

Have been researching this case study as it is the key to passing this H3 subject -Different Aspect of Human Personalities. I was glad I am finally able to come out with a conclusion. You might find that the two options given are totally different unlike those MCQ questions you did for your H1 subject. There isn't any trick to this case study.

The two options I mentioned earlier on was:

A - caesium + water --> The resultant is the key to this option

B - Red lobster

A

Cello cello. Bringing hope and happiness from the start but turning everything into disappointment in the end. What a "AO MIAO" western instruments it is. You were created to bring music into life but yet you created a havoc. An instrument with such long historical past and with such great pride and honour. Never did I realize that you can cause a person to forsake you at the beginning but decides to pull you to her side again. You helped me see through a person. Bringing a conclusion to this missing puzzle. BUT you made me dislike this person even deeper. Shouldnt you try lessening my hatred with your sweet music?

B

Busy, busy and busy. Such nice words. This word never fails to bring a stop to everything. That's nothing muh to talk about this option. Things were different 3 years ago and everything changed now. Key point is insufficient time, busy, busy and busy.

Readers, you people must be finding it confusing or for those who understand, you must be thinking that it's an irony.

I'm done with my H3 subject!!!!!!!! Finally!!! This marks an end to everything. I'm glad. Wad a fruitful day.